Challenge day 12: Bullet Your Whole Day

• Wake up, hungover, with the baby stealing my pillow as always

•  Take shower while vowing to NEVER drink tequila again

•  Go to breakfast as Cracker Barrel because we are out of eggs and IHOP is too busy. Greasy food makes my belly and head feel better.

•  Get some essentials at WalMart

• Take rest time with baby while the four year old is quiet AKA talks as loud as humanely possible

•  Go take care of pets I am cat sitting

•  Wonder how only two drinks can make me feel so crappy. I must be getting old. Watch tv with baby while four year old, hubby, and my brother hang out

•  Order pizza

•  Thank god again it's summer vacation

Challenge Day 11: First 10 songs on your IPod Shuffle

Alas I can't do today's challenge since I listen to IHeartRadio and sooooo...

Challenge Day 10:Guilty Pleasure

Cigarettes. The sweet tobacco smell in the pack. The first breath after the light. The inhale, the exhale, the cancer. Yeah. It's a horrible habit. I happily quit while pregnant with each of my children but when I have a drink on the weekends I crave that cigarette. And when I cave in I always inevitably feel like an asshole the next day but I keep going back. Granted the days I drink so much I want a cigarette are the days I am making an ass of myself by drinking too much. So drinking to excess is also a guilty pleasure although I feel the older I get the amount of beer that makes me act like an ass gets less and less. And the hangover is longer and harder. I know that I should quit both and I probably will within the next couple of years but for now while you sons are oblivious I will endulge on the weekends.

Challenge Day 9: If You Could Have Any Job In the World

I love being a teacher! I love the hours and the vacation time. I love the smell of pencils and textbooks. I love the excitement of the first day and the excitement of the last. I love watching students evolve and change throughout the year. It is a dream job and I am three years in when they say most teachers don't make it past five.
However, I have always wanted to be a large animal vet. As a child I would volunteer at the animal shelter. In college after deciding journalism pay wasn't going to make me rich I got my degree in animal science and pre-bet medicine. I worked on a sheep farm. I have worked in many a vet clinic as an assistant and tech. I have worked for a humane society. I would love to be a female James Herriot traveling the English country side delivering calves and inoculating sheep. I hope once I retire I can have my own farm.

Challenge Day 8: A Moment You Felt Most Satisfied With Life

What a tough prompt today! I feel that none of us are ever truly satisfied with life while at the same time it's pointless to spend your life upset or angry at circumstances out of your control. I try to find the happy in every situation which isn't always easy. Unexpected illness, bills, stupid bosses, extra busy at work, all those life things can get in the way. But my sons and my husband bring me immeasurable amounts of joy.
One time in my life I have felt turkey satisfied is nursing my youngest on the couch while my oldest and husband nap in the afternoon. Knowing my family is happy, fed, and safe helps to block out the bs of the real world for long moments of time.

Challenge Day 7: Favorite Childhood Toys

I grew up in a rural area where it was 20 minutes to the closest store. The neighborhood I lived in backed up to thick woods where pine trees with branches perfect for climbing on dominated. In the fall and spring we would play man-hunt in the woods which is a game similar to hide and seek but instead of tagging your opponents you threw pine cones at them. (Can you tell I was the only girl in my neighborhood??) in the summer we would be able to find and eat wild blackberries and in the fall there were wild grapes. My dad made us tree forts that we can play in and let our imaginations run free. Most afternoons and weekends my dad would fill us giant cups of water, set them on our porch, and lock the front door. I would run through the woods pretending I was Ayla from J. Auel's "Clan of the Cave Bear" series. The world was my favorite childhood toy.

I had the favorite plastic kind as well. I kept my Barbie dolls prominently displayed in my room until I was 12. I had a billion stuffed animals. I had the original Cabbage Patch kids, my Little Ponies, the Quints, my Little Pet Shop. I played Legos and GI Joes with my big brother. I still have most of those toys in my mom's attic thinking one day I would have a little girl to share it with but with two sons they may end up going to a future neice. I 

Challenge Day 6: My Zodiac Sign and Does it Describe Me

According to some random website (http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/scorpio.htm)

Scorpio in a Nutshell:

Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity. Scorpios are very deep, intense people, there is always more then meets the eye. They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive. Scorpios have a very penetrative mind, do not be surprised if they ask questions, they are trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail they can possibly know. Scorpio's are very weary of the games that other people try to play and they are very aware of it. Scorpios tend to dominate and control anyone that lets them, or anyone that they find weak. The person that a Scorpio respects and holds close to them is treated with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity. On the outside, a Scorpio has great secretiveness and mystery. This magnetically draws people to them. They are known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because they need control for this makes them feel safe.

And yeah- that pretty much sums me up. I am a very loyal person but once betrayed I tend to hold grudges. I have issues trying to deal with people who are bullshitters and tend to avoid them. I have read about Scorpios being very sexual and very creative and I feel that is pretty descriptive as well. I love to write and sew and create and I love a good roll in the hay. I tend to dominate conversations even though I really try not to. I am a person who likes things my way and get pissed when I have no control in situations. 

Challenge Day 5: Favorite Comfort Foods and Why

I love fall comfort foods. The soups and pumpkin-flavored everything and the zucchini breads. Even though I live in a part of the country where we don't get fall per se I love that time of year. The colors of leaves changing on the trees that have leaves change, the wild grapes ripening, the breezes that we get a little more often. When I was in college I got to actually experience fall and it was everything I ever hoped for! Even now in the middle of our summer (although technically summer just began according to the calendar) I have broccoli cheddar soup in the crockpot and writing this post makes me wish for the fall leaves, Halloween, my birthday, Thanksgiving, my wedding anniversary, and the promise of Christmas on the horizon!

Challenge Day 4: My Veiw on Religion

Today's challenge is complicated. I have been an atheist my entire adult life. I have attended church but just can't seem to swallow what they preach. The scientist in me just can't believe without proof. And I believe in things like evolution, the Big Bang. I believe that good people are those who have morals but don't prescribe to Christian morals as the only means to being a good person. I don't believe good people go to hell just for not being a Christian. I do think there is a social aspect to religion that I miss out on. I have been tempted several times to join the Mormon church as I agree with their views on family and money but the bottom line about Christ holds me back.

Challenge Day 3: My Top 5 Pet Peeves

1. Not buckling kids in cars. I call the cops every time I see it.
2. Canceling plans by simply not calling especially when those plans are with your grandkids because while I can accept your flakiness my babies shouldn't be accustomed to it.
3. Lying. About anything. About everything.
4. Leaving your mess for someone else to clean up especially if you are above the age of 5. Seriously the clothes hamper is RIGHT there. The kitchen sink is in the same place each day. You are a grown human. I am not your maid.  Not at home and not at work.
5. Politics. While I love politics and even minored in it I don't need to see your five billion Facebook posts about your beliefs.

Challenge day 2: Where would I Like to Be in 10 Years

Today is an interesting writing prompt. 10 years is a long time from now but if I stay in the same career field and it can relatively quickly. The decade that was my 20s flew by and I am sure my 30s will go even faster. In 10 years Baby Thor will be a teenager! And in high school!! Baby Hulk will be 11 (middle school). I want one last baby in the next two years or so and that superhero will be in school. I am hoping by that point we are in a new house or have made the necessary additions to fit everyone into our little 1000sq ft home. (Third world problem) I am assuming my marriage and family will still be happy, healthy, and intact.
As for career I am just truly beginning my career as a teacher. Last year my long term sub job turned into a full year as a teacher but this year I will have my own class for every day from the beginning of August until May. I hope to have my Masters in 10 years and at this point I still see myself teaching. And enjoying my job. Hubby is quitting his job to become a teacher as well and I hope that in 10 years we can spend summer vacation traveling in our old Shasta and visiting National Parks and faraway places.
I hope in 10 years I have hobbies that are fulfilling not just of my time but also in my soul. I hope to get better at knitting and sewing. I hope in 10 years I can get back into volunteering and can make more of a contribution than my money does at this point. I hope in 10 years I look in the mirror and can do more than nit-pick at the miracle that three pregnancies and two births have done to transform my body. That I can ignore the flaps of skin and extra weight and just be at ease in myself.
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

Challenge Day 1: Relationship

30 day blog challenge day 1: relationship

I am married for five years this year. 5 years... Half a decade. When I met my husband I didn't even want to date. I was newly divorced (although my ex and I had been separated for more than a year and a half) and newly single from an abusive relationship. I met my husband at a party and while I was physically attracted to him, I played aloof. I was apparently irresistible and he chased. Our first date was watching Avatar and making out in a friend's garage. Beyond a few days here and there we have been inseparable ever since. Our first date was June 4. He proposed July 31. We married November 27. We have welcomed two sons and mourned the early loss of another child. We rarely argue and in five years I can think of only one actual fight. We fit each other. He is quiet and a hard worker. I am overly social and relentless. We like the same movies, music, lazy Sundays. It's not always perfect but I couldn't imagine any other life for myself or the family we have created. I remember after my first divorce thinking how I would never be happy. How marriage was a sham and  how I refused to be a part of it ever again. I'm thankful each day that my husband changed my mind.

30 day Blogger Challenge

Apparently it has been over a year since my last post. Crazy... Nothing horrible or tragic has occurred but rather the life of being a mommy to my two boys and working full time as a teacher took up ALL my free time. I missed the chance to write though. The chance to share my thoughts somewhat anonymously with a world who probably doesn't really care. I am going to change my absence however starting with a 30 day blog challenge! 😃